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Nkunzi Karugire

Anxiety

I never took anxiety to be a serious matter. I often disregarded the idea of it and thought it was a fallacy created by society to weaken our community. I never knew it could be so real until I had a personal encounter with it. Anxiety isn’t something that is just made up or comes from thin air but is rather an “overcoming” spirit of fear.


Being the overthinker I was, the enemy took this as an opportune moment. I began to feel caged in by something, but I didn’t know what. Only when I started to have physical reactions is when I realized that what I was facing was deeper. My hands would tremble, my head would ache and I would puke: I felt helpless. I felt like I was an inadequate human because I couldn’t control my own emotions. I felt incapable. All of these complex and heightened feelings and emotions began to slowly take over me like a symbiote. When someone came up to me I felt like a ball of lead had dropped to the very pit of my stomach. How was I supposed to live as a normal human if… I didn’t feel like one?


How is anyone supposed to navigate these emotions on their own, and why did I have to? The answer is simple, I was not supposed to. Unfortunately, I found that out the hard way. God was there for me every day, I just refused to open the door to Him. I’ve heard a teaching that essentially says that no matter where you go, God stays right where He is. Never leaving. I realized that I was holding on to these burdens that I was not meant to carry.


After prompting from people in my life, I began to pray against any form of fear or anxiety tying me down. I would put my burdens upon Him. I would repeat 2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV) “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind” every day, teaching my spirit and mind that it’s not my portion to be chained down. Letting go of anxiety felt like nothing I could put into words. It felt like I could take flight. That’s what Jesus does for you when you let Him in. He wants to free you from the shackles holding you down. He wants to lift the weight off your shoulders. He wants to remove the muzzle keeping you timorous and quiet. But only if we let Him in. It is completely our decision if we take up this marvelously bountiful offer.


No one has understood this struggle like God has. No one has been more patient than God has. No one has been there for me every second of every day, merciful and kind like God has. I will forever be grateful that I opened my heart to Jesus because I would still be the nerve stricken girl, too afraid to speak up.


Anxiety:

  • An evil spirit of fear

  • A spirit that thrives on fear and timidness

  • One out of 10 billion things the LORD has helped me overcome.


I thank God for this testimony and can’t wait to see the world through a new lens!


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sheilahaye1
Feb 05, 2022

Thank you for sharing this , its like you had me in mind when you were writing this and i pray i will be able to overcome just like you did. Thank you thank you , may God bless you with so much wisdom

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Excellent 🥰

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aidanseth006
Jan 21, 2022

This post is so incredible and relatable thank you for posting it!

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Timothy Kagweza
Timothy Kagweza
Jan 21, 2022

Anxiety disorder can be caused by many things which include Genetics, Brain chemistry, Some research suggests anxiety disorders may be linked to faulty circuits in the brain that control fear and emotions. Things like Environmental stress. Drug withdrawal or misuse. Medical conditions. We need God to overcome all that, we always need someone to talk to, someone who would rather understand than judge us. Someone who wouldn’t link screenshots of our conversation and that’s Jesus Christ our Lord and savior.

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Anxiety is simply the result of uncertainty, and the bible teaches the idea that uncertainty is, essentially, distrust with the plan of God. It's not that anxiety is a sin, but that anxiety is the act of experiencing fears and worries that one wouldn't experience if they truly follow and show commitment to God. Therefore do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God Thank you Nkunzi💙

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